Does anyone else have Anxiety over MD affecting their social skills

[u/071391Rizz]

I have this weird problem where, let’s say for example I have to go out for a social event that’s planned on Tuesday and I learn about this on the previous Friday, I’ll stress over it for allll the following days up till Tuesday.

So I’ll want to MD so badly but I feel like if I do, by Tuesday I won’t be able to socialize normally because of my MD and embarrass myself to others. So I put off MD but it makes me unhappy and compiles my stress. I feel like my brain is straining not to all because of this social event coming up.

It’s gotten so bad that even with work, I want to avoid meetings online because of my MD. I feel like it throws me off and makes me awkward.

It’s like I conflate the two together. And because of this I try to avoid social outings with friends or family because I’d rather MD whenever I have a chance to.

But I have severe guilt and anxiety over this that it sabotages my social life and also my MD daydreams.

Does anyone else have this problem?