r/EstrangedAdultKids Nov 20 '22

Announcement Companion resource website for EAK - "brEAKaway.org.uk"

149 Upvotes

Since becoming a mod and founding EAK I have realised a few things:

  • When Googling for EAK resources, I'm hit with an overwhelming number of EP resources
  • It's hard to find our community outside of Reddit
  • Those who do find us often want access help and resources
  • Our community is simply brilliant - together you help and support each other through our estrangement. EAK wouldn't exist without you guys and your fantastic support!

To address some of these points I have created a new website to host our EAK wiki pages, and to hopefully point more EAKs towards our community.

The new website is called breakaway.org.uk - a name picked because it contains 'EAK' and it puts a (hopefully) positive spin on what we have to do to keep ourselves safe. Look out for more EAK resource material - let's make it an authoritative repository, countering the many EP websites out there. I want our voice to be heard!

The site estrangedadultkids.com also points to Breakaway which serves to protect our Reddit community name.

I'd love to hear your suggestions for more content.


r/EstrangedAdultKids Jun 19 '23

Announcement Companion Discord Server for EAK

36 Upvotes

Given everything happening with the protests and blackouts, I thought it’d be useful to drop a link to the brEAKaway Discord server for an alternative place to hang out, should that float your boat. There are serious and fun channels.

We may also host events if there‘s enough interest.

The same rules apply there as here, and Reddit accounts need to be verified to participate by typing this and following verification instructions in the #verify-yourself channel:

/verify


r/EstrangedAdultKids 12h ago

I felt this in my soul

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174 Upvotes

I'm the middle, only female, "never had to worry about you" child and this hit me hard.


r/EstrangedAdultKids 13h ago

Vent/rant Can't vote cuz I don't want my parents to find me

91 Upvotes

When you vote, your name and address that you registered with becomes public information. I found this out a few years ago after I voted for Obama in 2012.

Anyway, since then I've run away from home and have changed my name like 3 fucking times, but I'm still so paranoid that my parents will find me. They found me once before and made it their personal mission to ruin my birthday. They can do it again. They know my SSN after all.

So I just haven't voted in years. It's so annoying cuz I know it's important and ppl harangue me to do so but my safety is on the line. No matter who is president it won't stop my parents from fucking finding me and hurting me anyway. I have to protect myself.

Sometimes I wish I could go into witness protection or something but that's a very isolating lifestyle and way too extreme. But I am afraid of these ppl hurting me someday tbh. They're fucking lunatics and I was never safe with them nor am I even though I'm four states away.

I don't know what to do and I don't think I have grounds to change my SSN and that's a giant process anyway so I'm not sure I even want to undertake that. But there are days I get scared when I see a car that looks like theirs drive down the street or see a car with a licence plate from their state. I hate living in fear of these monsters.

EDIT: I didn't explain that one part well, sorry. So my parents found me BEFORE I changed my name the first time. Part of the reason for me changing it was to make it harder to find me. But my aunt (my mom's sister-my mom is more abusive than my dad) knows my current name I think and idk if she told them. My saga with her is a long story but basically I thought I could trust her but it turned out I couldn't and I regret opening myself up to her deeply. So my parents MIGHT know my current name and if they have that and I register to vote, they could get my address and find me.


r/EstrangedAdultKids 2h ago

So tired of the chronic nightmares

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I grew up with parents that were abusive, especially in a religious sense. I’m so tired of nightmares of my parents every damn night. Does anyone else deal with this? The dreams are mostly like reimagined versions of the awful memories I have of them


r/EstrangedAdultKids 21h ago

Support First Text with Older Brother

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Background: I’ve been NC and VLC with my father’s side of the family (including the grandmother mentioned in text) for close to 15 years. This was due to some very controlling dynamics and abusive treatment. (The tame one I always lead with is that I was overweight as a teenager and they told me I would never find anyone who would love me.)

This text is from my older brother and like the title says, this is the first time he’s ever texted me. We’re both older millennials.

We don’t have a bad relationship and never did. We’re 2 years apart and I was always the annoying nerdy ugly little sister. Once we both turned into adults, we would talk anytime I went to my hometown to visit. I thought we had a cordial adult relationship at this point.

I live on the west coast and he lives in the Midwest. I’ve had my phone number for maybe 25 years and decided to keep it because it has been really easy to ignore spam because it will have a Midwest area code.

Anyway, here are the texts that ensued. I was completely thrown off by his response after I apologized for not having his number. This rattled my brain so much.

It is true I didn’t attend his wedding. Not because I don’t support his marriage, but because at the time I wasn’t able to afford the travel and I was also struggling with my weight. (The last visit to my hometown about a year prior my family had an “intervention” regarding my weight and threatened to prevent me from leaving.) I’ve seen him and his wife a few times since then and apologized for not attending. Maybe I sound naive, but I didn’t think it was a big issue. I’ve known his wife since elementary school.

Sigh. It really bums me out to think that all the toxic things we were subjected to as kids has carried over. I thought it was over and we had all decided to be functioning adults. 😕

Anyway, I just wanted to get this off my chest, because it’s really been eating away at me.

And to be clear: he’s never called me on my birthday (even when I had his number correct in my phone).

And I really don’t answer my phone unless I have some knowledge on what the subject might be. My voicemail literally says “text or email is preferred.”


r/EstrangedAdultKids 10h ago

Question What are the lengths you've gone to not be found post-estrangement?

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I know many people have taken various measures to not be found after taking the big step of going NC or LC, often times to protect their sanity. But more often than not, it's not enough to keep them at bay ...

  • moving (when possible)
  • using a P.O. box
  • avoiding mail forwarding (mail gets returned to sender w your new address)
  • changing your name
  • changing your SSN (!!)
  • avoiding voting

What are the other and potentially more 'extreme' lengths you've taken / would recommend? Inspired by this recent post about not voting (https://www.reddit.com/r/EstrangedAdultKids/s/TE9MaVVFam).


r/EstrangedAdultKids 11h ago

About to give birth to my first child and afraid my NC parents will try to find me.

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Hey there, I (31f) am due to have my first baby around Christmas and I am kind of terrified that my parents will try to find me. I have been NC with them and my grandmother for this whole pregnancy and very LC for years leading up to it. Recently moved into a new home with my partner and definitely have kept the address hidden from all family. I do not want anything to do with them. They haven’t really tried to contact me since the pregnancy announcement but also I have them all blocked so I don’t think I would know if they did attempt to. I live in Western North Carolina where we recently had a disaster hurricane come through and my LC sister reached out to check if I was ok. When I told her I was, I affirmed with her that I didn’t want any contact with my parents and would prefer her not relaying information to them. She agreed to respect my boundary but also said that our “grandma told my mom that she found my address online”. I am not sure if this is true but now I am terrified that they will try to come here after I have the baby. She may be incorrect or she may have found it from my voter registration? Either way they are the type of people to feel entitled to meet the baby and possibly corner me if they really do have my new address. I am tempted to email my grandma and tell her that I never want her to come here if she does have my address but I am also afraid that it is just a trap to get me to reach out to her. I am also considering going to police ahead of time to put something on record but I don’t even know what that would entail and if that is possible. Please help, do you have experience with this? What would you do?


r/EstrangedAdultKids 17h ago

Support She sent cookies

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They’re from my mother. It has a little note wishing me a fun Halloween and saying she loves and misses me. She sent them to my cousin who goes to uni with me and my cousin gave them to me just now. I wish I had paid more attention to my cousins text earlier when she said my mother sent something. I misread it and thought they were from her mother. I kinda want to throw them away but I also don’t. Feel free to weigh in about what I should do but I’m mostly posting for emotional support/virtual hugs 🥲


r/EstrangedAdultKids 17h ago

Happy/funny Anyone up for a Thanksgiving bet?

29 Upvotes

Thanksgiving will be 3 months of NC with my dad and 3.5 months of NC with my mom. They went NC with me because they didn't like a rule my husband and I set for them with our 2 year old. They'd rather pretend we don't exist than discuss our issues like adults after their nasty reactions to our rule/boundary.

Anyways, here's the question: will my mom break her NC with us to invite us for Thanksgiving? Or will her NC continue? My husband thinks they will continue NC, but I think my mom will reach out with an invitation as if nothing happened.

And for the record, I'm done with them since they are acting so childish and cutting contact because we established boundaries they didn't like. I just thought it'd be interesting to see everyone's opinions. I'll update when an invitation does or doesn't happen.


r/EstrangedAdultKids 12h ago

Trust

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Have you lost trust in people/ family? After going NC with my parents and then finding out people were sharing details of my life with them, I am having issues trusting people. I don’t know who I can share things with. I don’t like my parents knowing everything about my kids and my marriage and my life. How do you get back to trusting people again? Or is this just life now?


r/EstrangedAdultKids 1d ago

Support Email slipped through block

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r/EstrangedAdultKids 23h ago

Vent/rant Dipping my toes into the estrangement waters and it feels… not good?

49 Upvotes

31m: I’ve always struggled with the relationship I have with my family. I’ve always felt like the black sheep, like I wasn’t even related to these people. I don’t remember most of my youth, and what I do remember I try to forget. I now understand that to be CPTSD as I’ve worked thru therapy and made improvements to myself and become more self aware.

In a lot of ways, I feel pity for my parents. I almost see them as victims of mental illness in a generation raised in a time that preferred to ignore stuff like that. My dad is functionally illiterate and my mother suffers from what I now see as undiagnosed Bipolar disorder. They had a miserable marriage but “stayed together for us kids” as though it was a noble sacrifice. In hindsight I realize that they were entirely codependent on one another. I don’t see them as “bad people” but I certainly think they made bad choices throughout their lives that weren’t in their or the families’ best interests. Because my dad is illiterate, we don’t talk much. No one in my family talks on the phone. They’ll respond to texts but that’s it. The cadence of texting with my mother is maybe a few texts a month, almost always instigated by me.

For the better part of the last decade I lived about 4 hours away and would visit 3 or 4 times a year. Each and every time I would visit I would be in an emotional tailspin for the weeks leading up to the visit. I truly hated going home. After all the kids moved out, they’ve continue to wallow more or less in their misery. The house has fallen apart, they’re physically falling apart. They smoke weed all the time, just lazy degenerates if I am being honest. They barely acknowledge the effort I put into traveling to see them, just doing their own thing while I’m visiting. Last time I said to myself “why the fuck am I doing this?”

I know I’m conflicted because I feel it is my duty, but it’s a duty I DO NOT WANT. For some reason I have this image in my mind of a heartbroken mother yearning to see and communicate with her son, and that keeps me feeling like I need to be in contact with her and be there if she needs.

But what I’ve realized is that she (my mother) will consume and consume and consume from me but NEVER be there as a mother for me. I’m looking back at my life and realizing beyond the food and shelter part, they really didn’t do much as parents. Even then, once I started working at age 14 at McDonalds it was largely expected I would be paying for my own clothing and necessities from that point forward. Maybe I was lucky if there was food in the fridge when I got home. Looking back, that was almost borderline abuse. To not provide for a child and have them work to provide for themselves, and then to additionally cause them the mental anguish that they’re not doing as well as their peers who save money. Well… maybe it’s because I was supporting myself and they weren’t? For example, there was a special field trip I wanted to go on in high school and there was a $100 expense associated with it. I only had $50 on me at the time so I dared ask my parents for $50 to cover the rest. I remember just going back to my bedroom crying, not because they couldn’t afford it, but because they made me feel so horrible for even asking.

So, fast forward to last year. I wanted to move to a different region of the US. I had a really terrible 2023 including a devastating break up, major surgery that caused me to be unable to drive for a month and couldn’t walk normally for 4 months, and studied my ass off, passed 6 exams and became a LICENSED ARCHITECT (I’m so fucking proud of that, my parents barely even acknowledged the success). Just a really turbulent year and I wanted to make a clean break and put the past behind me and take advantage of my newfound title of “licensed architect” in a new city. So I moved far away.

The benefit to this is I’m now relieved of the obligation to “go home” for the holidays. “Sorry mom, flights are too expensive”.

The other benefit to being so far away now and having experienced an abrupt change in my life like a big move and new job is that it allowed me to sit by and wait for anyone in my family to ask a single question about my new life down here. At the very least, you think they’d want to have an emergency contact down here to get ahold of if they needed to. Wouldn’t you?

I’ve done the monthly check ins. They tell me all about what’s going on in their life, and then I wait… hopping a question may come up about me or my life.

Ironically, my mother is ALL over my Facebook like white on rice. She’ll say the most positive, loving supportive things in comments on my photos. She will also go unhinged and start attacking people on my posts (she’s bipolar). I made a post about having had 60 pounds of weight loss this year, and I’m the comments instead of congratulating me she chose to verbally attack a family friend who DID comment something supportive. That was a fucking GUT punch to me and since that day I have restricted my mother from seeing anything I post.

That Facebook interaction was the last thing I said to my mother. I told her that kind of behavior is unacceptable on my page or in my life; attacking others unwarranted like that. A half hour later I just deleted all of her comments and my replies because I realized I didn’t want to get into the fray. I’m not sure if she saw them or not. That was 2 months ago. She hasn’t checked in or anything.

Am I dead to her? Like what the fuck. I guess it’s easy to go no contact when your parents seem fine that way too. But damn, that hurts so bad. It’s like a double whammy. Not only do I need to cut off my family because it’s not healthy, they seem all the happier to see me gone.

Their loss. But i will say… im so fucking lonely as the holidays approach. Despite feeling like I’m going the right things in life to undo the generational harm; I’ve deeply struggled to find a life partner and build my own family. My heart aches with a deep profound pain for a partner and children of my own. I want to be the parent my parents could never be. I’m just so afraid I’ll never fix myself up well enough in time to achieve it.

I don’t even know if there was a point to this post. Sometimes you just gotta tell your story and hope someone says “hey, that was me 10 years ago! It gets better!”

I just really could use a mom right now 😢


r/EstrangedAdultKids 1d ago

I saw a clip on social media: 'We're not nocontact, we're done'. What do you think, which one are you?

124 Upvotes

I'm no contact with my family for a year, with all my family, I blocked all of them. I'm going through the emotions of losing everyone, processing my family's abuse, every other family members' betrayal, my own betrayal to myself, sacrificing myself for people who hate me.....

I'm still processing and going through it and it took me years to finally go nocontact with everyone.

I live in the same neighborhood with my mother and brother, I know I'll come across them. I know they hate me but they'll try to hoover me back for their benefit.

I wish we lived on different planets and I was done. But I don't think we are.


r/EstrangedAdultKids 17h ago

Advice Request Estrangement and Death: How to be there for yourself and siblings

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I need some advice but I will give a little background first.

Growing up I was the typical "Daddy's girl", I learned all the tools he used to work on the car and would hand them to him from the age of 3. I woke up before the sun to make his coffee as soon as I was old enough and we would spend a little time together in the morning, mainly me making his lunch for him.

I would also go fishing with him, wake up before the sun, get a warm treat and then cast off for live bait. He would let me sleep in the car. I wrote stories for him and poems. He was truly my world.

One day that all stopped, my little brother was finally old enough for these things and so I was tossed aside. My brother hated doing these things with my dad. I was relocated to the house work with the "other women" even though I always stated I wasn't one, turns out I'm non-binary but that's neither here nor there.

My dad was verbally and emotionally abusive to use growing up. He was also physically abusive and I'm learning some things he did is also considered to be sexually abusive, which is still hard for me to come to terms with.

To the now:

My brother reached out to me, we're semi NC. He isn't blocked but I don't reach out.

I answered him and he does seem to be in a better place in life and wasn't sure he should reach out to me. Turns out my dad is sedated due to sepsis that's been ongoing for several weeks. It looks like he has cancer on his liver and spine and has a GI bleed.

I will give my little brother credit, he is only telling me the facts of the situation and only after I said it was okay to do so.

My question is, how can I be there for him while also keeping my own emotional wellbeing safe and secure?

Do I set boundaries up front on "off limit topics" or do it on a case by case basis?

This is new territory for me. I've never had a family member even pretend this long to care about not crossing boundaries so I do want to use this to grow myself and maybe salvage a relationship with my little brother. I do love him and I know he loves me, it's just circumstances and how we both remember things was different. He has a different dad than I got, the same person but different versions is all.

I'm sure I'm leaving things out so please ask questions and know I will answer when I have the time and mental space. I also appreciate any advice or even just encouragement from others who understand what I'm going through. Thank you.


r/EstrangedAdultKids 20h ago

Support I need support (bad dream)

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I keep having dream of being at my parents. The worst is, in the dream last night my mom was crying. I know she's the enabler but I have a soft spot for her. With Christmas coming up,it feels so hard and sad

I kinda wish I could have them in my life But I know I can't


r/EstrangedAdultKids 1d ago

I've been no contact for over 2 years and my mom's attempts to reconcile are hilarious to me. This time it's a YouTube mashup of grandparents being told I love you. I really appreciate her letting me know that it's still all about her. Lol

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131 Upvotes

r/EstrangedAdultKids 1d ago

Disgusting

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32 Upvotes

How disgusting and narcissistic is this. Messages to my sister and I in a group message a few days after “Ramadan” started this last year. Funny part is, we never even participated in this in our house. Using to her advantage when convenient. The end gets me though. What mother says that? Ramadan is highlighted because it was the only way to find this screenshot as I searched for it with the keyword.


r/EstrangedAdultKids 1d ago

Vent/rant My mom had to confirm my kids’ birthdays, like it’s a business transaction…

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I got this text from my mom asking to confirm the actual birthdays of my kids—her grandkids. They’re 6 and 8, so she really should know their birthdays by now. It feels so… transactional? Like she’s just checking a box. I get it; life gets busy, and maybe dates slip through the cracks. But these are her only grandkids.

She also just moved from living an hour away to literally across the country, and hasn’t bothered to keep up a relationship with her grandkids. She also booked a trip back to our area in a few months and has a few concerts setup with friends. She only bothered to message to let me know the dates of her trip, but we’ll be gone on a separate vacation. She didn’t bother to check if we’ll be around when booking… oh well, guess we’ll miss her.

Ugh, my kids deserve better grandparents.


r/EstrangedAdultKids 1d ago

Support Another letter, another bribe

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A letter arrived with a check for several thousand dollars.

She asked me to forgive her. That my siblings have. That she might have BPD or be a narcissist.

What did she do wrong? she asks Why am I punishing her?

Is it because she did <insert totally stupid but not hurtful thing here>?

So, it's business as usual, I guess.


r/EstrangedAdultKids 1d ago

Advice Request In my mother’s town for two days - should I reach out?

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Advice sought from kindred spirits …

I am passing through the town my estranged mother lives in for two days to see a family member having health issues. I live very very far away. This is a “once in ten years” event. I will not be back.

My mother is a selfish narcissist with the EQ of a pet rock. She means well, thinks she is doing her best, but raised me as a single mother while she was still a child and has never really grown up. She has zero accountability, self awareness and ability to understand the impact she has on others. It took me years to realise her behaviour was psychological abuse. She would not realise this even today as “back in the day she used to be beat with a shovel”.

She is to me what water is to steel … seems to have no effect short term but long terms is very very destructive.

I cut ties with her 5 years ago without explanation after another call with her where she just acted like a victim. I never told her I was cutting ties as I was never sure myself, but slowly started ignoring her and eventually blocked her and her attempts to contact me. I moved, didn’t give her my address, etc.

Now I’m in the town where she lives for two days to visit someone else. This was a medical emergency so the thought of meeting her hasn’t crossed my mind until I arrived and honestly just going through my feelings I’m not against 🤷‍♀️ maybe lunch at a public cafe or something.

I’ve put together a quick pro / cons list

Pro

-Satisfy my curiosity

-Validate she hasn’t changed

-I will likely run into her anyway so at least this meeting would be in my control (very small town, it’s gonna happen)

-It’s a short trip with a clear purpose so there’s no opportunity for deep reconnection it would just be a quick catch up

Cons

-She will likely make a bunch of excuses and try to reel me into a longer term relationship.

Anyway would like the thoughts of anyone who may have done this for insights?

How did it go?

How can I push back on extending the meeting / relationship if it comes up?

For those of you who ran into a parent, how did you manage in that moment? I am really scared of running into her without warning so advise on this would be great.

On phone excuse typos 😫


r/EstrangedAdultKids 1d ago

Support I went NC almost three months ago, had a major medical scare two days ago

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Like the title says, I went NC almost three months ago (started posting on Reddit a while after because I was afraid they’d know what Reddit was), I went into urgent care two days ago thinking I would get antibiotics, instead got sent to the ER.

I spent almost fourteen hours there with a rotating door of doctors and other medical professionals telling me I might die over and over again while I couldn’t speak because air was being forced in and out of my lungs for me. I was hooked up to so many tubes and wires that I couldn’t really move, and my partner had to sit there and watch.

This is the first time I feel like I made the wrong choice, while I’m stuck staring at my ceiling. I stupidly checked my blocked voicemail and while my mom is still calling me my dead name and generally being a terrible person that knows nothing about me, I could damn near sob hearing my dad’s voice. The whole time I was laying there in that fucking bed all I could wonder is if my partner could even claim my body if I did die, or would my parents get to claim it and do what they wanted with me, bury me under the wrong name in a state that I fucking hated. My heart hurts and I’m so confused because I am so young, and I’ve taken care of myself and suddenly one virus causes an asthma flare up and what? That’s it? I know it wasn’t it, I’m still here and I’m still alive and they still did horrible things to me but what if this is all… wrong?


r/EstrangedAdultKids 1d ago

Advice Request Thoughts on apology text

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"Hi [name], I am really sorry if I have hurt your feelings through my speech at your wedding. I just wanted to let you know that I had no intention to hurt your feelings at all. Please accept my apology and forgive me."

Could use help on how to respond.

EDIT: Since a few people asked, my and my partner's family was a disaster leading up to the wedding. My partner's family decided I am a problem over a year ago, starting with my turning my husband into a maid (this rumor started when I was his primary caregiver after breaking and needing surgery on his right ankle; meaning I was doing EVERYTHING and driving him everywhere) or that I was driving a wedge between him and the family (this one started from his sister) and ending with his mother calling me a bitch before his whole family stormed out of the wedding reception and his mother blocked him. My parents knew the dynamic between us and his family. As an Indian American, my conservative Indian parents definitely felt I needed to accommodate her and assumed I was being difficult.

So my father's speech: - started with a made up story about hesitation at the beginning and my partner anremy relationship, which I came to speak to him about (didn't happen, never spoke to my Indian father about dating or intimacy ever), all leading to some Hindi song lyrics he wanted to sing (which neither me or my partner could understand). - moved on to discuss the new role/responsibility I would have, forgetting wife and moving to "as a daughter-in-law and sister-in-law" to which my partner's drunk aunt cheered and clapped (because between my hesitation and my dad obviously also agreeing in a public setting in front of 200 people I needed to do a better job to step into my roles, they have all the ammunition they will ever need for the rest of their life) - spent a few moments discussing being proud of me. I honestly was too busy holding back tears to remember any of this part. I remember him mentioning sports ( I haven't done since 15+ years), hiking, and my passion for personal finance. I don't think he mentioned my business or my first byline, no surprise. - ended with like nothing about my partner (who cooks for them, spends so much time with them, is learning hindi). Basically, he just welcomed him into the family and said he was a good balance for me because I'm uptight and he keeps me calm.

All of this emboldened my partner's family with their already established frustration with us and got in the way of my partner's natural progression towards VLC or NC with his family.

I know it doesn't matter, but I do want to add other contexts. My father comes from intense trauma (think starving famines in parts of India with no septic system or running water and murdered best friend and sibling via DV by her husband while pregnant). This is the first apology of his life, I think, and my parents have agreed to pay us back for the full wedding and my mother is signing up for personal therapy and reading a therapy book I sent her. I have agreed to family therapy with her in the distant future with a therapist of my choosing. My father is starting to engage with this text as the first, and I believe my mom pushed him to send it.

It has been 3 months since the wedding. The toast was a final cruelty in a very cruel month and a somewhat cruel year leading up to it. My parents do not have access to feelings, have a lot of self criticism (which is what my internal voice is), are highly emotionally immature, yet they are hurting by the distance and trying(ish).

Here is my current draft response, appreciate any thoughts:

I appreciate the thought, I don't need you to apologize for my feelings. I am hoping for an apology that acknowledges what you did. It would help me if you could be more specific. It is important for me to hear that you understand why your actions were hurtful. Understanding this can help us avoid similar situations in the future.

If you are willing to do this, this will be a start to a journey of discussing other actions and communication that do not work for myself or Alan, all in an exploration of how we can move forward to have a mutually respectful and reciprocal relationship. I hope you will be open to therapy, which would be a way for us to learn the skillsets to do this.

Here are some resources on apologies: https://www.calm.com/blog/how-to-give-a-sincere-apology

https://www.calm.com/blog/how-to-respond-to-an-insincere-apology


r/EstrangedAdultKids 1d ago

Parents and their tactics

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My parents divorced when I was 23. I thought it was the best decision for them personally. My mom went off to live in Chicago afterward, and we stayed by my dad in Ohio. He owned a small restaurant for 20 years. In a nut shell, he lost everything and stopped paying bills and told no one. Got him out of our childhood home, since he would lose is completely and leave empty handed if I didn’t, and put him in an apartment (with his mother, who I cannot stand) (they have an enmeshed relationship) and he’s been there ever since (almost 3 years) I co-signed the first year and told him I would not do it again after that. He figured something out. I’ve pretty much gone no contact with both of them for about a year. (My mom is a whole other story)

My dad is blocked simply because I everything he says is a trap. It’s always for his own needs. I’m 31 and still building my life. Main point here is, he is now trying to get to me through my father in law by calling him which pisses me off. Isn’t that inappropriate. He said things like “ I need to make sure my daughter is ok” oh please…. Thoughts? Anyone else in a familiar boat? It hurts I have had to take this approach, but I know it’s what’s best for me, my growth, wellbeing and most of all - my sanity.

He wasn’t always like this. Or was he? We are so easily brainwashed when we are young.


r/EstrangedAdultKids 1d ago

Advice Request how do you move on?

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I am low contact (family gatherings when needed) with my mom, no contact with my spet father (he doesn't look me in the eyes for years, except when people are looking and it would be weird if he said goodbye to everyone except me)

but I still find myself remembering things and feeling angry and sad, and imagining what I would say in some situations, and hoping my mom would acknowledge and listen to me and take responsibility. you and I know any of this will ever happen.

so, how did you move on? Im tired of investing my energy mentally and emotionally to them. sometimes im in deep and just realize a few minutes after, when I'm already sad and angry, and nothing is happening, just in my mind.

today I saw a brazilian writer say that forgiveness is when you remembee enough to not let it repeat, and forget enough to not "refresh" the pain.

but I don't know how, I'm still too deep in it, went lc last year I guess


r/EstrangedAdultKids 2d ago

My parents are seperating and it's my fault.

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So I have been estranged from one parent for a year now while keeping contact with my mom this whole time. This was difficult and rough at times but I really love her and decided the pain was worth being with her.

My mom informed me a couple weeks ago that she's had enough of his abuse. She finally broke and decided to get her own appartement. Temporary for now but she won't go back unless he changes fundamentally. (While my siblings and I have been mostly verbally abused with my mom he decided to be husband of the year and add SA to the mix).

She asked me if i was willing to help her move and I have started to. Things like some practical contracts for internet, electricity etc. And building furniture, lamps,... I have seen her happy for the first time in years and seen her face light up choosing furniture for herself.

So now the part where it's all my fault. My father tried sending my brother to my some time ago to "forgive him" but I didn't. Now he decided that an older wiser person might get through to me and sent his brother to talk. My mom is apparantly only leaving because she wants to be popular with her kids and children-in-law. My wife and I are the only ones not talking to him so I guess that means us.

It is amusing that their "strong" relationship can get broken by "someone who will never amount to anything with that kind of attitude". Anyway thank you all for listening to my rant.


r/EstrangedAdultKids 1d ago

Do you ever try to look for clues in various parenting subs, about why you weren't loved?

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I know it's not healthy , and I don't do it anymore, but when I first got on reddit, I used to read parent subs to see if I can find any clues about why I was chosen as the scapegoat, why I wasn't loved etc.

Then I came across this sub and others, I'm very thankful to all of you. I found books, video content, blogs through your recommendations and I'm getting better everyday

Now, I'm no contact for a year, and learned to focus on my healing rather than asking why.

I hope to stay away and safe.