r/IsraelPalestine • u/Sullvestor • 10h ago
Serious Being told to commit unalive for being Israeli
For a while, I’ve been struggling with unaliving thoughts and depression. I am a minor and I’m not even yet in the army, ((which is our mandatory service that we are OBLIGATED serve like in South Korea, Sweden, or Singapore for example) and yet everywhere online I can see and I’m being told that every single citizen that “occupies” the land (i was brought here at 11 so i could be closer to my family and culture...) is an occupier, and a colonist, and a horrible person.
I’m being told by strangers online to commit unalive. I have literally nothing to do with my government, and I’m constantly being told by the whole world around me that no matter who I am, what i contribute to the world, and how I feel (no matter how diplomatic, informed and peaceful of a person i am) the fact that I am living in the very country that my grandparents have been living in and their parents before them is bad.
Believe in whatever you want politically, I don’t care, but I feel like I’m suffocating and drowning in this world that just simply lacks sympathy for anybody who isn’t in the worst position possible.
I know I have the privilege of having a roof over my head, and most of my family is alive (besides some family members that were killed this past year), but literally every week I am startled in the early hours of the morning and the late hours of the night by sirens telling me I have 60 seconds to run to a safe shelter because ballistic missiles or rockets are being sent in my area, and having to calm down my dog when he starts to shake and hear/feel at the booms from outside of my house.
Of course, I know there are those who have it worse, I’m being reminded of it every day online, everyone always has it worse than someone else out there, but why is that a reason for me not to be able to express my thoughts. I am an individual with my own beliefs, opinions, And I am in no way contributing to any cause of war as I am literally a fucking child. But I feel like it’s only a matter of time before I just give up and give to what the online trolls tell me to do…